2008 March « Nat a lie’s blog.

All good things must come to an end.

March 31, 2008 at 1:43 am | In Music | 1 Comment

And tomorrow Spring Break will officially be over and I’ll be back at school.

It ended on a good note, with me and Ashlie going to see Armor for Sleep last night. I was also very excited to see Metro Station, and while they were fun to watch I prefer the album versions. Armor had technical difficulties and started twenty minutes late, and had their set cut short. It was upsetting, and they didn’t play any of my favorite songs. However it was still a great time and I got my fix of my Ben Jorgensen (My camera doesn’t do too well with concert photos).

Recommended downloads:
Metro Station:
Shake It (my ringtone)
Seventeen Forever
Now That We’re Done
Tell Me What To Do

So, I turned on the garbage disposal after I made my coffee just a bit ago, and one of the coffee shot glasses fell in and got sliced into pieces. I got most of the pieces out but wasn’t too careful at first and cut the fuck out of my finger. I suck.

One of the biggest flaws of contacts:

March 29, 2008 at 2:58 am | In Life | 1 Comment

Before I could do pretty over the top makeup so that it could be seen, and it had a good effect with my glasses. Now I have to take it down a notch, and where before I could have my eyeliner a bit sloppy without it looking bad, today I had to redo it like three times to get the left eye just right, because it’s so much more obvious now. Hopefully I’ll get some good responses and it’ll be worth it. Tonight’s the test run, a get together with a bunch of friends.

Watching hip-hop videos with Steph.

March 28, 2008 at 5:47 pm | In Food, Life, Photos | 4 Comments

Jason Castro was in the bottom 3. Gave a cute little speech pretty much accepting that he was going home and had prepared for it all day, and then was safe.

Got my [soft] contacts on Wednesday. Took me like two hours at my appointment for them to train me to get them in and out! One of my biggest problems with them is that I get it into my eye fine, and then it just sticks to my finger and comes back out! I’ve finally mastered the technique aside from that, but my other problem is figuring out if the contact is inside out or not. The first pair they had me try had 123 on it so I could tell which was the right way, but it’s a lot harder to tell with this new pair. I usually just kinda wing it. I’ve only worn them for one full day but I got it down! and got them out on pretty much my first try.

Then me and my mommy went and got a hamster! I’ll post pictures later but my mom named him Alfie (which made me giggle and think of Lily Allen, naturally). She wanted to just call him Teddy Bear or Bear [teddy bear hamster] but I nagged her to be more creative. We’ve called our guinea pigs Baby, Miss Piggy, and Buddy.

Yesterday me and Stephanie went to Ihop! For the Horton Hears a Who specials. We both got Who Cakes, and the green eggs and ham (regular ham, scrambled eggs w/spinach. still very very good.) And the drink that I forgot the name, but it was sprite with blue and red jello in it. Free refills and it was mmm. Nothing like jello through a straw.

I got my custom made leather bag in the mail yesterday! and I love it!! I’ve been so excited to get out of my house glasses-free and just show off all my newness.

American Idol Top 10.

March 26, 2008 at 4:13 am | In Music | 2 Comments

Jason Castro, man of few words. He seems the least of the group like he wants to be there, only because he’s so shy and gives one word unenthusiastic answers, but he’s damn cute and I’m not gonna lie, I downloaded his songs so far. Carly Smithson’s as well. Her cover of Blackbird was really pretty, and while the whole of Come Together wasn’t amazing, I love how she sounds during the chorus enough for me to listen to it over and over again. Anyway, Jason has pretty eyes, what do you want from me?? You can tell music is his passion, he says that the happiest time in his life was when he was the drummer of a band with his four closest friends, the Hollywood life just doesn’t seem to be right for him.

I’ve pretty much lost interest in everyone else but my two favorites, unless they’re performing a song I really really know and like.

Carly Smithson is just rad. She made it to American Idol two years ago [I wasn't watching back then] but her visa expired and she had to leave the country!!! That’s gotta SUCK.

She looks like she’s got a bit of an attitude here but she’s actually really sweet. Her husband’s face is entirely tattoed, and it doesn’t look really good but they make a badass couple.

So, suggested downloads:

Jason Castro- Michelle
Carly Smithson- Blackbird and Come Together
Brooke White- You’re so Vain (I LOVE THIS)

Goals

March 24, 2008 at 10:07 pm | In Blog | Leave a Comment

New/old/revised goals!

I’m getting contacts sometime this week! or at least going in to see about them. <33. I want to go into prom looking glamorous and girly, and without the glasses will blow everyone away. I’m really not into many people at my school, but I want to do something fairly shocking before I leave. Especially since I never got to get senior pictures done.

I’m very particular about where I want to work. I would work with cds/games, clothes, but mainly I want to start out in childcare. I’m gonna take a look into Fred Meyer daycares, I’m assuming you have to be at least 18, but it could still be an option, I’m just worried that it’s the type of place that wouldn’t need much help. Along with that I’m checking out other part time childcare establishments in the area. If not working part-time before I graduate, I want to at least have some options for something more full time by June. There’s another preschool on the same street as my school that I’m told is usually looking for help, and I will look into it besides being really annoyed with one of the girls from my school who works there. I can’t stand her, but the hours must be fairly flexible even though I don’t have early release like the other girls.

I want to have my permit before I graduate! But more likely than not it’ll have to just be before I turn 18. My friends driving has inspired me, and the more I visualize it when I’m with them, the less scared I feel about being out on the streets.

I’ve completed my goal in being happy with my body. I’m still pushing, but I’ve gained so much self control. I’ve got some real confidence, and I can’t wait til tanning weather! I’ve never been fake tanning and I’m not sure I would.

Ooo and I need to learn how to braid my hair! I’m trying extra hard to be a real girl. and my pink/purple/blue braids have gained a fanbase.

Tats

March 21, 2008 at 3:17 am | In Tattoos | 2 Comments

Was talking about tats with Ashlie today, who is considering going with Laurel on her [Laurel's] 18th to get tats together! This is me being a crazy jealous bitch since I was good friends with both before they ever met each ot her, and I want to be involved damnit!!! Curse me being one of the very last of the bunch (the only one coming to mind after me is Cara, who skipped a grade) to turn 18!! I don’t approve.

The first tat I know I want for sure is the Alkaline Trio tattoo, who with mostly simple lyrics about heartbreak & drinking, I know I will always relate to and love.

There are endless variations to this logo, you can add little things to it or even make it a color if you want, which makes it look really cute.

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This is my favorite variation of the alkaline trio logo, but it took me a bit to locate it

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My friend Nico and my sister both also want this tat. Both want to go with me to get it on my 18th! what to do.

The next that I might really want is one of the Armor for Sleep logos, the flying man. This is a band that will ALWAYS have a place in my heart. I made the flying man in jewelry when I was a sophomore, I believe. It was pretty badass and I was going to add a cloud behind it but as I skipped that class constantly it just never happened.

Not the greatest pics available, but JUST THE OUTLINE of the flying man. I would probably get that done and add on to it over time. Add the rays at the bottom as he’s floating upward, and then add the cloud behind him that I always wanted. I really wanted him on my side, but the issue came up of losing/gaining weight, getting pregnant someday, and it stretching. I’m wondering, if it was on my side but closer to my back, would it still get major-league fucked up?

American Idol Top 11.

March 20, 2008 at 4:19 am | In Music | 1 Comment

Last night I texted my vote in for American Idol for the very first time. Nothing could have possibly made me feel dorkier. Jason Castro will not win, but he’s so damn pretty and adorably shy and awkward that I just want him to stick around <3

I’m watching one of the top 11 about to be voted off. I hope it’s Christie Lee Cook, the girl from Oregon who turned “8 Days in a Week” from one of the two Beatles themed weeks, into a country song and crashed and burned. The only person more than her who deserves to go home is AMANDA ODENMEYER, the rock-chick who can’t sing only screech, it’s gotten old, and she even admits to not being able to sing ballads. Ever.

Jason Castro sang “Michelle” and his smiles throughout his french lines could not have produced a bigger smile from my face.

My favorite for the girls is Carly Smithson, the tattoed Irish bartender who is beautiful and amazing. However, she is in the bottom three and might be going home tonight.

Starting up again.

March 19, 2008 at 2:14 am | In Life | 1 Comment

So a couple months ago I got put on celexa, which is a medication for anxiety and depression, which side effects can include suicidal feelings?? That seems incredibly odd to me but since I haven’t been feeling this effect I shrugged it off. However, the last couple weeks or more I’ve been having very odd, realistic, and VIVID dreams every single time I fall asleep. And none of them good. Normally I rarely dream or remember them even well enough to describe. I credited this to my senior venture research paper, which was taking up all my time and consuming my thoughts. I thought the dreams would stop when it was finished but they haven’t. My brain is easily tricked, I have no idea if the medication has been working for my anxiety or if its just the placebo effect. I know this, and the dreams are becoming increasingly difficult to deal with but I’m not sure if I want to take the risk of going a step back. Especially the last two months of high school.

When I got prescribed the meds it entirely proved my Psych teacher’s point, who was talking about this only days before my appointment. She ranted about how doctors will just make any diagnosis and throw any medication to satisfy patients. If this one doesn’t work, here, try this one. Which is almost word for word what my doctor said to me when I had barely even described to her what I was feeling. I had only said a few sentences when she said oh CLEARLY you’re suffering from bad anxiety, here we’ll get you started on these. I just like to feel like I’m doing SOMETHING to help myself out, because it just got to be too much.

Anyway. Prom is coming up and on Saturday I’m going dress shopping with Ashlie, and probably Laurel. I was very excited, and still am, but today my mom pulled out my sister’s old dress, which is incredibly beautiful. I haven’t been to any of the high school functions, and for my senior prom I was INSISTING on having a brand new dress, and one of my own. I have my own style and thought dress shopping would be a blast. But I felt like a fucking princess in my sister’s and started thinking of how to do my hair and makeup and now I just want to keep it!

The best dieting program I have ever been on is my senior venture paper. I was so busy I forgot to eat the majority of the time. I was always busy and drank a lot of coffee which would fill my stomach and I would be asleep before it wore off and I was hungry. I realize this is entirely unhealthy but it wasn’t a conscious process and hey, it worked! I’m happy with my body again but am still working on it.